baby number 3?

No, I am not pregnant. I never thought I wanted more than two kids, but now I am rethinking that! Some of my friends are starting to have babies, and when I see those babies, I get sooooo sad that Owen and Scarlett are growing up. Anytime I talk to people with 3 or more kids, they say they love having three kids, and they are so happy they had more kids. We just can't make up our minds! Some days I want more kids, and then there are other days when I don't think I could handle one more! I have asked women that have two kids, "Did you ever think you wanted more?" and they all have told me no. They said they knew they were done having kids and they were happy with the decision to stop. I am missing a baby around so much, I think about it almost every day. I don't know if this is because Keely is about to have a baby, or it is me knowing that there are more kids in our future. I picture us having a house full of kids and grandkids, and it makes me so happy. There are 5 kids on my side of the family and 5 on Mikes, so shouldn't we have more?! I never knew being a parent was going to be this fulfilling and amazing. I mean there are days where I want to bang my head against a wall, but those days are few and far between. Some people keep trying to have babies until they have at least a boy and one girl, but I have both. If we did have another one, all we would have to have is some diapers...so it would be cheap to have another one. We would not find out what the baby is, and I have already picked out names for a new baby. I am thinking this all means we are not done having kids!

It is cold!!!

I do not want to go outside! it is snowing and I just want to be in my house with my babies and Mike watching Tinkerbell and the lost tresure, with a fire and a hot something to drink!

I don't get it...

Extended nursing! I am a little discusted by this. I hear of more and more women nursing toddlers and beyond, and I am really having a hard time with it. I mean, I don't critisize other mothers often, but this is hard for me to turn away from. When a child is old enough to ask for a boob, it is time to be done with nursing. I think nursing is so great for BABIES. Breast milk is better for your baby, but there are no studies saying that a child needs it longer than 6 months. I am all for kids nursing for at least a year. I also understand that many women have problems nursing, or have to go back to work, but if you can nurse, you should. It is when I see a 3,4, or 5 year old nursing that I get a little judgemental. I think that the mother is fulfilling some wierd need in herself, and not thinking about the child. I don't think it will do massive amounts of damage to a child to nurse for an extended period of time, but I think there is potential for some emotional issues. A child needs to be able to become an independant person, to some extent, and extended nursing hinders that. A child needs to be able to make choices and be able to self soothe, and I think extended nursing hinders that big time. It can cause speech problems as well. When a baby is born, they swallow differently than you and I do. At 1 year old, they should be off of a bottle and learning to drink from a sippy cup so that they develop this matured way of swallowing. (not that my kids were weaned off of a bottle at 1 year old, but I started to inroduce sippy cups then) If a child does not learn how to swallow correctly, it will delay their speech. I have read blogs about this, and I have heard women having conversations with their child about breast feeding and it seems way inappropriate to me. I am in no way saying that I am against nursing, it is the complete opposite. I think nursing is something God intended women to do, and therefore, if we can, we should. Just my thoughts.

Vacation over :(

We went to Phoenix this weekend with two other couples, and we had a blast. It made me realize that Mike and Ineed to do stuff together more often. we need to leave the kids with a babysitter and just hang out with each other. I think he is one of the funniest people I know, and I miss laughing hysterically with him. I mean we laugh at home all of the time, but there is somthing about not being around kids that makes us act like kids again. It was fun and much needed. I will post some pictures as soon as I can figure out how to download them. Oh wait! I have one of mike! here it is....

Ahhhh! That's better.

We picked up Salmon from the vet's office this morning, and I sure hope he had a swell time, because for the amount of money we sent on his overnight stay, he better have had 5 star service! He was, thankfully, FULL of energy all day today. I would know too, because I was home for the 3rd day in a row. My mom offered to stay with the kids, but I just could not leave Scarlett while she was sick.I was going to sleep in another bed last night, because I thought she had pink eye, but I could not even let her sleep alone.All week long she has wanted me to stay with her and let her cuddle with me. I can't say that has been a bad thing, I lave enjoyed that time with her.I don't realize how independant she really is until we have a situation where all she wants is me. I makes me want to get out all of her baby pictures and imagine how it felt when she was a baby. AHHH, I am getting baby fever!
Today we woke up and Scarletts eyes were not matted shut, so we decided it was not pink eye. She still had a fever though, so I called the doctor to see if she could squeeze us in at some point, and the answer was no! The doctor was too busy to see her, so they called in some eye drops to our pharmacy. Well since we did not need the eye drops, I called later in the day and said, "My daughter still has fever, and I want to make sure she is not getting the swine flu. I thought that that would for sure get their attention, but it did not. I just needed some antibiotics!!!!! So, what did I decide to do?...I decided if the doctors office can't see her, I will take her to the ER, because they have to see us. I mean, come on, if the Doctor is too busy to see patients, HIRE MORE DOCTORS! Right after I had decided this, the doctor's office called back and said that they had calle din a perscription for antibiotics. Phew! I can go on vacation and not have to worry about my kids!

Oh my freaking day!

I have been home for the last few days because Scarlett has been sick. Low fever, coughing, sneezing, etc. I know what you are thinking, Swine Flu, but no such flu is at our house. Thank God! I have a hard time staying at home, because I get stir crazy. I have really loved spending time with my kids, but I am a little bit ready to get back to my shedule and work. side note, Scarlett just walked up to me and said, "your husband just bummped his head." Thanks for letting me know kid. back to the story. I have been taking care of little sicky and Owen, and then last night Mike comes in the house and says, "Salmon has a sore on his neck." So I suggested we give him a bath and put some ointment on it. When Mike brought Salmon in the house I looked down at his neck, and I saw a HUGE hairless spot, and a red puffy rash all across the bottom of his neck. NOT GOOD. I have a sick girl and now we have a sick dog. We took Salmon to the vet today and they ended up keeping him over night. He had a cut on his neck that had become infected and he would not stop scratching it which was making it worse. He is drugged up right now at the vet, and I can't wait for that bill to come. Should be quite exciting.
When Mike got back from the vet, he ate and got ready for school. After he left, I fed the kids and then I noticed that Scarlett's eye was puffy. I decided to give the kids a bath thinking that maybe she touched something that had peanut butter on it. After the bath, her eye started oozing some goo. I gave her some benadryl to get the swelling to go down if it was an allergic reaction. Not only did the benadryl not make the swelling disappear, but it made her go to sleep at 6:15pm. So here I sit, at midnight, with a 4 year old that is no where near ready for sleep. So poop on this day!
The part that just makes this even worse, is that Mike and I are supposed to go to Phoenix this weekend with friends. I am praying that the antibiotics wipe this eye goo out, so that we can still go. My parents are keeping the kids this weekend, but I would feel awful leaving my sick baby.

I am a lucky girl...

Yesterday I turned 28. This was not a huge birthday for me since I can already drink, smoke, gamble and rent a car. I mean what else is there to look forward to as far as birthday's go, right?! Well I was driving yesterday, thinking about turning 28, and would I feel any different from being 27? Considering the fact that I don't remember how old I am half the time, i did not think much would change. The thing I realized is that, I am still so young, but I have had a lifetime of happiness already. Not all people can say this, and I have experienced things that not all people get to experience. I AM A LUCKY GIRL!
1. I have had life FULL of love!
2. I have had 4 parents that love me, and would do anything for me. Some people don't even have one and I have 4! Actually I have Mike's parents now so that brings my parent grand total to 6!
3. I have been lucky enough to have grandparents in my life that I am close to and have influenced my life in such positive ways.
4. I have amazing step parents, and I know very few people that can say that.
5. I was lucky enough to know what it is like to meet somone and instantley fall in love with them. I can really say I know what love at first sight feels like. I know what true love is, and I have a husband who will do anything for me. He will never give up on me and he supports me!
6. I know how it feels to look down an aisle and be so excited to be looking at the person I would spend the rest of my life with, and create a family with.
7. I got to experience the excitment a woman gets from getting a positive pregnancy test twice, and the days of total confusion that follow that.
8. I had the joy of telling all of my parents that they were going to be grandparents twice.
9. The most undiscrible joy is being able to bring a life into the world with the person you love the most.
10. I have experienced the excitment of knowing that I was moments away from meeting my child, and being scared, nervous, and incrdible happy all at the same time. TWICE!

I have been fortunate enough to have so many incredible life experiences in my life, and in only 28 years. Sometimes I look at my little family and think, "how did I get so lucky?" God has given me so much to be thankful for! It is good to take a minute to think about all of the good things in your life, every once in a while. So, all of this to say, I think I do feel different.

Owen is turning two!

My little boy is going to be a two year old on Saturday! It is so bitter sweet when you kids have birthdays, at least for me it is. I am happy that they are having a good birthday and getting presents, but I am sad thinking about the fact that they are growing further away from being a baby. I LOVE the toddler stage so much, and I don't know if I am ready for him to be a boy. Boys are a little stressful to me. They are daredevils, and I don't like that. I do love the bond I have with Owen. He is a momma's boy for sure. He loves to give me kisses and hugs, and I love it when we get to hang out together when it is just the 2 of us. He has a sense of humor that is so amazing. Everything he says is funny. The way he talks is funny. the way he stands is funny. I just can't get enough of him! Both of my kids are so special to me in different ways. I feel so lucky that I get to have them as my kids. Owen loves to fight EVERYONE with his foam sword, and I think it is so funny to watch him do it. He will run up to starngers and yell, "YAAAAAA" and slice them in the leg. Then I have to say sorry, but people love it. The way he dances in the car makes me laugh so hard, it brings tears to my eyes. He loves to sing, dance, and say, "no" or "no way!".
I decided that instead of having a big birthday party for him, we would go away for the weekend to Albuquerque. They are having the Balloon Festival,and the kids will love it. On Saturday we are going to the Zoo...Owen and Scarlett's favorite. Every time we have a birthday party for the kids, they have an AMAZING time, but I don't get to hang out with them as much as I would like to. Owen could care less about a party at 2 years old, so I thought we could have a fun time with just the four of us. We invited our Friends Nathan and Jessica and their two kids, but The Flu moved in to their house earlier in the week, and I don't know if they will make it.:( I will post some pictures when we get back!

5 Years!

I am writing this blog at 9:45am. 5 years ago at this time, I was going to starbucks to get a pumpkin spice latte and then going to quizno's to have lunch. I could not eat anything but broccoli and cheese soup. My mind was a fog, and I was trying to remeber everything I needed to do for the day. After lunch, I headed to Mike's parents house to start getting ready for my wedding! So many emotions were running through me. I was beyond excited, nervous, happy, scared etc.
We got married in Mike's paretns backyard. I remember, right before they opened the gate for me to walk down to Mike, that I was so sure about this decsion. I was so happy to be marring the one person I wanted to share my life with. My stepdad walked me halfway down the isle and then handed me to my Dad, then my dad walked me to the canopy where Mike and my brother were. I gave my brother and my dad hugs, and they handed me off to Mike. At that moment things began to hit me hard. I looked atMy boyfriend who was about to marry me, and knew that he was my family now. When I needed something, I was not going to call my parents, I was going to talk to him. It was no longer my life, but our life. I heard one thing the pastor said and it was that I must leave my father and mother and cling to Mike. I wanted to stop him and say, "yes, i got it, I have to depend on Mike now, you can stop saying that." I was scared! what if one of us lost our job? What if my car broke down? What if, what if, what if?! Then we stared to say our vows, and I looked at Mike and all I saw was the love I had for him. He was and is the best person for me. He is the most understanding man I have ever know. I have complete comfort in knowing that he will NEVER leave me, and he will do whatever it takes to make me happy. He is by far, the best father I could have picked for my kids. We have survived so much already. We made it through owning a business together, two kids, and buying and selling houses. The business made things very hard and stressful for us. It was a huge strain on our relationship, but we did not give up. He still makes me laugh harder than anyone else. He is one of the only people in the world that can calm me down and see things logically when I am flipping out. I love you, Mike! Happy Anniversary!!!! Oh, and I could not find a wedding picture on my computer so I am posting one of my wedding ring. My original wedding ring fell in our garbage disposal and was demolished last november. Mike took apart our disposal, and found the band, and the big diamond. Mike took my ring to a jeweler in town, and designed me a new ring and this is what I got last year for Christmas. It has my original diamonds in it, and he was able to add a lot more. The coolest thing about my ring is that He designed it himself, and got to use my original diamonds.