Baby boy or baby girl?

We went to the doctor yesterday as a family. Mike and the kids had not gone to an appointment with me yet. Before this appointment, things were not too exciting, so I thought I would wait to bring the kids. Yesterday was pretty exciting! The baby was moving and squirming, and the kids loved it. Mike said it really had not been real to him until yesterday.

We gave decided not to find out what this baby is. Well, I have decided, and mike is just going along with it. He really wants to know, but I want to know what the surprise of not knowing is like. I have stuff for a boy or a girl, so I want to be strong and not find out. Yesterday the doctor glanced at the area between the baby's legs and said, "oh, do you want to know what you are having?". I hesitated and said, "no, we don't want to know". We finished up the ultrasound and I asked, "could you really tell what we are having?". She said yes, but if it made me feel better, she can't say with 100% certainty. I gave felt like it is a bit this entire time, and if she could tell that fast, I think it IS a boy. However, I would be just as excited if it were a girl.


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Life is changing

My sweets is starting kindergarten tomorrow. I am filled with tons of thoughts and emotions. This day feels like it came too fast. How did my baby turn into a kindergartener? She is so excited for kindergarten, so I am really excited for her, but it is bittersweet that she is growing up.

I hope we prepared her enough for this. I hope our decision to send her to public school was the right one. I hope she has a great experience this year, and she develops an even greater love for learning. Oh man, I hope she is prepared!

I am sure I am not the first parent to feel this way! I am
So proud of the girl she is, I could explode. What a gift I was given when she was born. I feel so lucky that God chose me to be her mom. I just hope I can hold it together when I drop her off tomorrow. My hormones are not helping things right now!


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I don't care what your opinion is!

Why is is that if you have more than 2 kids, people have an opinion? I have had people shake their heads at me in disgust that I would have another baby. I have people assume that baby number three must have been an accident. Let me set the record straight, BABY NUMBER THREE WAS PLANNED AND IS VERY MUCH WANTED. We are thrilled to be having another baby. I also want to make clear that I AM aware that I work. I LOVE my job, and I will be just as good at it with three kids. I can work, go to school, and take care of my three kids just fine.

What is with society acting like kids are burdens? People get irritated that I post mostly pictures of my kids on my facebook. I have heard people who get grossed out when a pregnant woman posts a picture of her pregnant belly on her own personal facebook. If you don't want to see pictures of someones pregnant belly, or their kids, don't look. People also like to let me know that I might lke having children now, but I don't have teenagers yet. While I won't be nieve and say, "my children won't be bad teenagers", I will say that my parents survived through it, and I will too.

I am not sure what people are trying to gain by being negative about having children. Are people trying to make me regret having kids? My kids are the joy in my life, and without them, my life would be empty. I will never regret having them, and I will keep floding my facebook, blog, and anything else with their pictures, because they are what is important to me. Without children, society will end. We should be encouraging good parents to have as many children as they want.

home birth?

It is a growing trend to have a home birth. I have looked into this, mainly because my two previous bith experiences were not ideal. I was induced with Scarlett because I was "showing signs" of pre eclampsia. I get that I was induced because there might have been complications, so I am not too upset about that one.

I was in a car accident when I was pregnant with Owen. They had stopped my labor one time, and had been moitoring me from the time I had the accident to the time I had him. At thirty six weeks, to the day, I went in for my regular NST and they said I was having mild contractions, and admitted me. After they admitted me, they gave me pitocin. Really, what they should have done, was let me go home until I was in labor and dialated more than 1. I did not see any reason why I needed pitocin if I was in labor.

I think it would be great to be able to be more in control of my birth experience. Women used to have babies at home all the time. No interventions from a doctor who wanted to speed up a natural experience. I also think it would be great to be in the comfort of your own home. The only reasons doctors give a woman pitocin is to speed up labor, and then they give them an epidural which slows labor down, so they have to increase the pitocin. It becomes a cycle of medication.

The only issue I have is that there are no midwives in our tiny town, so I am going to have to settle on a birth at the hospital. The great news is, I have a new doctor, and she seems amazing. She has two kids who she breastfed for 15 months each, while being a doctor! That is completely impressive to me. I think this birth experience will be better for me because of many reasons. I have been through this more two times. I know what to expect. I know what I want, and I am not afraid to ask for it. I am going to have a positive attitude this time, and I can't wait to meet our new baby. We have decided not to find out what we are having, and I am excited for that surprise too.

Number 3

It is official, I am haveing another baby! WE have wanted this for awhile now, but I wanted to loose 30 pounds first. I lost 36 pounds, and decided it was time. WE are so excited about this, and we can't wait to meet our new baby.

I posted a video on facebook of us telling the kids. I was not going to do that because it was pretty personal. I wanted to record their reactions to share with our families, but it was too funny to not share with all of our friends and family. I know the rule is to wait until 12 weeks to share the news, but I don't typically follow rules, so there. I am 6 weeks, and the more prayers the better, so we decided to let everyone know.

Scarlett understands it much better than Owen. She has started helping me out more, especially with Owen. The other morning I heard the kids get up, and Scarlett took Owen to go potty, made him wash his hands, and got him some milk. What a great help she is going to be. Owen still wants to jump on me all the time, and when he is holding dolls, he is usually throwing them in the air, or stabbing them in the eye with something. :/

Where do babies come from?

So the other night I told the kids to pick out some books to read. Scarlett picked out a photo album of when she was born and wanted me to tell her about all of the pictures. We were looking at a picture of Mike and I giving her her first bath at the hospital, and she said,"mom, was you healing in this picture?". I was completely shocked. Why would she think I was "healing"? I have never talked to her about how babies are born. I said,"what do you mean?". She said, " was your foot healing?". I said, " what do you mean, was my foot healing?". She said, "what I came out of your foot, did it hurt?". Part of me wanted to say, "yes, of course you came out of my foot". Then I thought, "why do I have to explain this to a 5 year old?!?!,I thought I had a few more years before that conversation!". I knew I had to say something about it because I can't let her think women give birth through their foot(although, that might be more pleasant than where they really come out of, AND, for the record, it would be much easier if we fed our babies from our fingers). So,I said, "Scarlett, babies don't come out of mommies feet, they come out of our privates." She said, " GROSS!!!!". I hope she is not scarred!!!


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Growing pains

Today I took Scarlett to a tour of the kindergarten she will be going to in August. For the last two days, the school has taken groups of kids on a tour of the school. They get to look at the rooms, meet teachers, do an activity, eat lunch, and play on the playground. I have always assumed this transition was going to be easier on Scarlett than it would be on me, but it was confirmed today. We went to 6 different classrooms, and Scarlett knew someone in every class. I decided to let her go to the bathroom with all the other girls, while I waited outside. After a while I thought, " it is taking her a long time, I better go see if she is okay." I walked into the restroom and saw Scarlett and 4 other girls talking. She had not even gone to the bathroom, she was too busy making friends in the restroom! She was so sad when we had to leave. She can't to go back in August. It was hard for me to imagine her old enough for school, but it made me happy to no that she will have NO problem adjusting.

I also want to point out that being a kindergarten teacher has got to be an entertaining job. I was only there for 3 hours, and I learned a ton of things from the kids. One boy told me that his parents just bought a house for 180,000 thousands of dollars, and he got a new belt buckle. A girl asked Scarlett if she had a dad, and Scarlett said yes. Then the girl said to Scarlett,"I have tons of dads and two moms, but Nathan, he is the dad that can never come back to our house with his girlfriend. Her name is Lydia, do you know Lydia?" to which Scarlett replied, "I know Lydia." kids have the funniest conversations. Sad, but interesting.


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